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regarding language: we use different terms to describe our members, like members (no surprise), parts / brainparts, facets, aspects, components or interns. that what works for us, and what we feel comfortable with currently, but that is just concerning us. other people prefer different ones, so it's always good to ask.
regarding writing spaces: 1) click on it to extend it / show the window 2) scroll to read more and 3) the newest entries are on top.
angel
INTRODUCTION
- pronouns: he/him
- holding/embodying/in system responsibilities: everything that has to do with sexuality and trauma related to sexualized violence
angel's writing space
INTRODUCTION ADD-ON
- gender: binary trans guy
- orientation: gay gay homosexual gay
- appearance, vibes, style, etc.: more feminine presenting than the rest, might be a femboy but haven't really explored that
- anything else:
- i enjoy being a walking stereotype
- i tend to overshare / don't share the attitude of the others on what is "appropriate" or "allowed" to talk about
- i relate to the characters "angeldust" from hazbin hotel (that's not where i got my name from tho and i'm not an introject) and george from "closer"
flint
- pronouns: it/its and he/him
- holding/embodying/in system responsibilities: anger and rage; the "fight" response; trauma related to discrimination, dehumanization and power imbalances; feeling "like a monster"
flint's writing space
INTRODUCTION - ADD-ON
- gender: transmasc, genderpunk, nonbinary
- orientation: aromantic (and romance repulsed, fuck that shit)
- likes, interests, hobbies, etc.: politics, anarchism, zines, horror, writing, collages
- specific favorites (books, music, shows, etc.): fever 333, fa!r, WARGASM (UK)
- appearance, vibes, style, etc.: punk
- anything else: voidpunk
kepler
- nicknames: seven
- pronouns: he/him
- holding/embodying/in system responsibilities: (perceived) apathy; indifference; "feeling alien"; the "freeze" response; analyzing and intellectualizing
- "role"/focus/resposibilities in everyday life: buffer for / blocking out of emotions; special interest in space and physics
keplers's writing space
INTRODUCTION - ADD-ON
- Gender: male, in an abstract way
- Orientation: aromantic, asexual
- Likes, interests, hobbies, etc.: mathematics, physics and astronomy are my main interests, but philosophy and psychology are fascinating as well. I just want to understand.
- Appearance, vibes, style, etc.: I am aware it's not realistic, but I think of myself as a robot, android and/or alien.
nicholas
- nicknames: nico, echo
- pronouns: he/him
- holding/embodying/in system responsibilities: social phobia; gelotophobia; intense fear of being disliked; moral OCD; RSD; the "fawn" response; internalized expectations & wanting to be "normal"; imposter syndrom, self-invalidation & denial; compulsive caregiving & the effects of parentification
- "role"/focus/resposibilities in everyday life: people pleasing and masking; social situations and events; avoiding trouble and conflicts; everything to do with family
nicholas' writing space
11.09.25: FEELINGS ABOUT HAVING BLURS
i'm having a hard time with "my" blurs. i know they are their own people (or whatever we are) and that i'm not responsible for them or their actions, but it's just so deeply embarrassing... like, they aren't me, but parts of them are? and what they do with that kinda reflects on what's in me. i don't like that.
flint and kepler don't share that feeling as far as i know. vale might?
but the whole thing probably plays into my issues with responsibility - i always feel responsible for everything. so it makes sense that that includes internal stuff. so i get that i'm overreacting or projecting or whatever.
08.09.25: MOODBOARD
(none of the images in the moodboard are mine/ours and i/we don't claim ownership. they are from pinterest.)
i thought a moodboard could be a nice way of introducing and finding myself a bit more. i'm still figuring out what i like, how i want to present myself and so on.
which is difficult. i don't think i had a lot of chances to develop in that way. i guess that goes for all of us and the collective identity, but i specifically always had clear roles to play. that didn't require a lot of "personality" or any other identity besides whoever i was supposed to be.
sorry, that got a bit too intense and existential. i don't want to be a bummer.
INTRODUCTION - ADD-ON
- gender: (binary trans) guy, i'm not always open about being trans and "enjoy" being stealth
- orientation: achillean / gay and either a- or demisexual
- likes, interests, hobbies, etc.: i honestly don't quite know. i mostly just go along with what other people want?
- specific favorites (books, music, shows, etc.):
- appearance, vibes, style, etc.: i don't like standing out, so my style is somewhat mainstream-ish.
- anything else: it's kinda weird writing this, because i'm still not sure if we're plural? we (or the host, which would make it i i think, but that feels wrong) could just pretend. idk. i'm the most sceptical one and i feel uncomfortable using terms that might not be mine / ours.
robin
- nicknames: (little) bird, magpie
- pronouns: mainly fae/faer and it/its, also accepts he/him and they/them)
- holding/embodying/in system responsibilities: "flight" trauma response
- "role"/focus/resposibilities in everyday life: trying to take care of our plants and befriending the birds in the neighborhood
- notes:
robins's writing space
INTRODUCTION - ADD-ON
- gender: agender maybe?
- orientation: aromantic and asexual - all that stuff doesn't interest me at all
- likes, interests, hobbies, etc.: everything to do with nature, plants, animal and fungi! i love creatures! i also like collecting trinkets and everything that is shiny. oh, and doing crafts. i have a lot of sparkly beads and i like making necklaces and i also sew the trinkets onto clothings and bags :)
- specific favorites (books, music, shows, etc.): i mostly watch cartoons like gravity falls or phineas and ferb, and sometimes some playthroughs of video games. hollow knight is my favorite! it's so pretty and the music is amazing. i listen to the soundtrack quite often. i also like aurora and yaelokre, but most of the time i prefer listening to audiobooks. either fantasy, adventure, mystery or crime, but not if it gets too dark, so most of my media are meant for younger people.
- appearance, vibes, style, etc.: forest and nature things
- anything else:
- if i were an animal i would either be a bird, a bunny or a deer
- i always thought i might be a changeling who replaced a real human child
silas
- pronouns: he/they
silas' writing space
INTRODUCTION - ADD-ON
- gender: transmasc
- orientation: gay, asexual
vale
- nicknames: ghost
- pronouns: they/them (or it/its, but in the way you'd refer to something dead)
- holding/embodying/in system responsibilities: "flop" trauma response; feelings of doom, hope- and helplessness; existential dread; depression and suicidal ideation (used to be a lot but there isn't much to hold anymore, which is disorienting); religious trauma (mainly manifests as believing that we are a bad person who deserves to suffer and/or die); spirituality
vale's writing space
INTRODUCTION - ADD-ON
- gender: agender, genderless
- orientation: asexual
- appearance, vibes, style, etc.: in-system i think of myself as something undead (either a ghost or revenant)
viktor
- nicknames: vik
- pronouns: he/him and they/them
- "role"/focus/resposibilities in everyday life: things related to academia and university
viktor's writing space
INTRODUCTION - ADD-ON
- Gender: I don't think about gender a lot to be honest. "Male-aligned but genderless" would probably describe it.
- Orientation: asexual and on the aromantic spectrum but oriented towards mlm. Grayaromantic maybe?
- Likes, interests, hobbies, etc.: literature, history and philosophy.
- Appearance, vibes, style, etc.: stereotypical librarian.