previous: issue 9.

it's the tenth issue! i've been doing this for ten months now, which is pretty cool. lots of started and unfinished projects, but i'm still having fun with this website and i haven't lost interest or track! even if i'm not very active at the moment.

typical bulletpoint updates

because long texts and formulations are exhausting.

• 4 years on testosterone: i'm officially 4 years on testo now. which is wild to me. it feels simultaneously longer and shorter. i probably will write something a bit longer about it at some point, when i have the time and brain capacity to properly reflect.
• university: still going, still a lot, still generally interesting. i dropped two seminars tho (which reminds me, i still have to write the emails) but that's fine. honestly my main goal is to just stick with something.
• moving: i'm officially paying rent for the new room and one of my friends (and now flatmates!) gave me an introduction to everything, which was very sweet. the whole thing is starting to feel more real - i'm not used to that yet. the previous tennant moved out a bit earlier, so i spent the last two days painting my room. i chose a nice shade of dark blue for the biggest wall and that one is already finished, now i just have to paint the other ones white. i might have been a bit too ambitious because i'm already exhausted and crashy, but i want the room to feel nice and like home.
  • furniture: i have been spending way too much time thinking about furniture and the logistics of obtaining some. admittedly, i'm probably making it more difficult and complicated than it has to be.
• chronic illness: i think i'm still trying to process having an official diagnosis. it shouldn't change anything, after all i've had the symptoms and suspicion for a while now (plus you don't need a diagnosis to have a chronic illness - that's not how it works), but i think it does affect me? or maybe i'm just bad at resting at the moment and it has nothing to do with the diagnosis, but it does feel connected somehow. i'm not sure how, why or in which way tho.