july's issue

thoughts and things written into the void

july 2026

issue no. 18

i changed the "previous issue" and "next issue" thing. looks nicer now, i think. i retroactively changed it for the last few months as well.
i added some photos to the fake instagram
still updating the metoidioplasty page

i'm trying to watch more movies. even tho i love movies, it's often kinda difficult to watch them, due to attention span, brain fog, fatigue and how exhausting emotions are (and good movies invoke emotions, but i rarely have the capacities for that). but i want to make an effort and also catch up on some cult movies and classics i haven't seen yet. started with "alien".
short films would also be interesting. it's definitely an area and field where i barely know anything.
i have two doctor appointments this week and they are both further away than what i'm currently used to. since i've been home from surgery i basically just stayed in my city district and only used busses. so while i'm still not comfortable or confident in being outside with my wheelchair, i know what to expect here, where the elevators are, etc.. didn't expect to be nervous about being further away from home. i'm sure it'll be fine and i have to get used to it again anyways. but yeah, that's definitely something i didn't have after the other surgeries. which makes sense i guess but it's still new and overwhelming, even if i maybe should've seen it coming.